all i can do

When time passes by,all i can do is wait for a miracle to happen. Was i too silly to choose this path? Can somebody answer them for me? What can i do? I'm helpless.I want to end all miseries,but people keep pushing me back to where i started my journey. What can i do? I don't wish to escape,but it's really very pathetic,please? Can somebody just tell me. I don't know what i can do already.

charmaine