not only you!

You say they are neglecting you by hanging out with me, fine! Sure! I won't hang out with them anymore! They can be with you for as long as you want! You never think about me! Lip words won't help! It never will! You can have them back! Go back to your normal life, ok?! Happy?! I don't even know whats going on anymore!!! Yes, I know i'm gullible, but i know whats going on around me, ok?! Yes, they care about me, but they care about you too!! Thats what friends are for! To love and care for their friends!! Thats what they are showing me! They are still your friends! They are still the people you knew from the start! If they don't treat you as a friend, why would they bother talking to you?! You are telling people things behind my back hoping that i won't find out and that it won't hurt, but it will. IT ALWAYS HAS BEEN THIS WAY!! They are my friends and they are yours too!! You're not the only one who needs friends! You have more than enough! I don't know whats going on anymore!!

This world doesn't consist of only you!! WHY DO YOU ALWAYS THINK OF YOURSELF ONLY?!! YOU SAY THAT YOU WILL NEVER WANT TO HURT ME, BUT YOU'RE DOING IT OVER AND OVER AGAIN!!! YOU'RE STABBING ME WITH A KNIFE OVER AND OVER AGAIN?! HOW CAN I BE BRAVE ENOUGH TO FACE THE WORLD?! YOU SAY YOU MEAN EVERY WORD YOU SAY TO ME, BUT I CAN TELL THAT YOU DON'T!!!!!!!!!!! I KNOW I'M USELESS, I'M NOT AS SMART AS YOU, BUT I'M STILL A HUMAN AND HUMANS HAVE FEELINGS!!! I KNOW I'M A FAILURE, I'M NOT AS GOOD AS YOU!!! I KNOW I'M JUST EVERY WORD YOU CAN DESCRIBE, BUT I'M STILL ME!!!!!!!!

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

charmaine